5:24 p.m. - 2007-03-12
Fragile
I want to die right now. I think im going to die right now because of that English literary criticism/oral defense. :(( My oral defense will be on wednesday or unfortunately, tomorrow. I am not yet ready, please. Sana naman wag full panel sa defense ko. Please :| Sana si Ms. Castillo lang. Sigh.

We had 3 quizzes and 1 longtest today. and I crammed. :| i know cramming isnt good.Ive been cramming since like 1st year? Before kasi hindi ako nag-aaral pero pumamapasa ako. haha. 4 students again had their defense today. Sir Antiquera was there.. 25 down. 15 students to go and 6 students to go before my oral defense. :(( Panic!Panic!! collapse. okay. im still not yet making my speech.

I hate people who are too masungit and people who dont take me seriously when Im serious. Ang warfreak talaga nila. I cried. Good thing they didnt notice that i cried. What people dont know about me is that I am too sensitive, sometimes even though im hurt, i pretend to be happy because i dont want people to notice that. I hate it when im trying to be nice to them tapos gagaguhin nila ako. It is so unfair. Its so hard when you keep on pretending and that people cant even comfort you and that they cant see that i am crying. I am vulnerable. I just want them to be more sensitive and start caring about other's feelings. My heart really hurts right now and i cant even breathe. :(
i saw LS. Cute niya talaga. Miss ko na siya :(

4:42 p.m. - 2007-03-11
Eviction
The seniors had their last play yesterday.It was really emotional. Pauline,Abby,Maya,Jow,Jussell: im gonna miss you all. I cried a lot. Its really hard letting them go. 1 year isnt enough. i cant believe they're leaving, i cant also imagine sr. jeff not being our moderator. I dont know if i am ready, but ill really miss them :((. I dont want to let them go. I love them. Hindi ko kayo malilimutan. :((

im still working on my powerpoint presentation for my defense. Geez. Im so nervous right now. dont have a speech yet, and im not yet studying for our quizzes/longtest tom. yay :|. And I already got my promdress na. May promdate na ata ako. Pero Im not yet sure. Sayang, sana si Jap pa din promdate ko. :((

Nobody understands how much I miss you, I miss how much we used to talk, & miss all the things we used to do. I try not to admit it to myself that I still feel this way. Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of you each day. I still think of you & I really do miss you. I would give up everything I have to be everything we`re not.

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